...and got onto the treadmill. It was only for twenty-five minutes, and at a pace that would have embarrassed me not that many years ago, but I did it.
(I can hear the crowds cheering.... "yay, Ruth - knew you could do it - way to go man..." And the crowds go wild. Take a bow, Ruth)
I don't know what made Saturday morning special, cause I've been procrastinating this event for months, but I got up on Saturday morning and one of my first thoughts was: today is the day I get onto that d--- treadmill. So, I did.
Part of what I call procrastinating has actually been cold, hard fear - of pain, and disability. Almost two years ago, while innocently walking down two steps at the Mall of America in Minneapolis, my foot did something funny and I ended up ripping a bunch of fibres in the achilles tendon of my left foot (at the back, just above my heel). The pain I experienced with that, and in the many subsequent months, was pretty intense. I still have a lot of ups and downs with it - just another thing that wakes me up at night sometimes with one or two thirty-second stabs of such sharp pain that I have to hold my breath until it passes. I still have to be careful how I walk, because it takes very little to aggravate the injury. I've dealt with plantar fasciitis for about twenty years, and that's been difficult at times, too, but the achilles thing is so easily devastating to my ability to function that I have to be very careful.
But on Saturday, it was as if all the stars had lined up: amazingly (or perhaps as a result), given how much I've struggled with sleep this month, I slept well on Friday night; furthermore, my achilles seemed ok when I got up and, after some careful testing, I deemed it pretty good; perhaps the two factors combined lent me a cheery optimism (not) to think that I'd like to give the treadmill a try. I can't say that it felt great - I hate to sweat, and what's so great anyway about clomping along like a big ox and getting nowhere - but it felt good afterwards, and I avoided the temptation to eat more later just because I'd had a bit of a workout beforehand.
So, there. Another hurdle surmounted. I'm hoping that, just maybe, it won't be quite as hard a day or two from now to get on the d---- thing again. Sorry about the almost-terrible language, but that's the way I think about it - I truly have a hard time even thinking the word treadmill without adding a colourful adjective to it, kinda like a prefix.
Thanks for comments and support!
* Darci - that's a good idea re: physio - I saw a podiatrist re: my achilles way back when and got some temporary help, but haven't done physio (which I should have known to do, seeing as how I got physio for years with my plantar fasciitis)
* Shannon - great idea re: books on CD from the library for when/if I'm on the treadmill. Thanks.
* Gwen - yay - someone else who's starting exercise afresh! Go girl, and let's keep each other motivated!!
* Kristen - yes, please, I would really appreciate the name of a physio or two. Now that I've got the idea in mind, I'll act on it as soon as Geoff starts his new job in a few weeks (then we'll have coverage to help cover some of the costs)