Monday, July 18, 2011

He Loves Me...He Loves Me Not...He Loves Me.

He know what it means.  And he's said it before, half-heartedly, in the context of me saying it to him.  But this afternoon, while eating a snack, Seth looked across the table at me, stared me right in the eye, and said "Mommy, I love you."  He ran around the table and climbed onto my knee and hugged me fiercely.  He said it again with his face buried in my neck.  He meant it.

I guess I know how which flower petal I'll pull out last this time!


  1. Hi Ruth,

    You don't know me, but we are in fact related - My mom, Beverly Hiebert (once Penner) is your cousin. So my grandmother, Martha, would be your aunt. Anyway, I've been meaning to leave you a comment for a while now - I really enjoy your blog! My husband and I have been in the process of intercountry adoption for a few years now. We were first en route to adopt from Thailand when our agency's program closed. Now our file is in South Africa, on hold! grrr.... Anyway, I can relate to much of the struggle you've described, and I'm thankful for your open and honest posts. We, too, have requested sibling (under 5), and you are giving me an amazing (sometimes frightening) glipse of what is yet to come! Your family is just so lovely - I dream of that one day.. My grandmother always asks me, "Have you read Ruth's blog lately?" And then we chat about your latest anecdote. Anyway, just wanted to say HI and congrats and thank you!

    Melanie Hiebert

  2. Aah, what a nice feeling after a tough couple of weeks! All your hard work is definitely having a huge impact!

  3. Hi Melanie -
    Thanks so much for being here, and for commenting - I'm delighted to hear from you. I'd heard that you were in the adoption process somewhere, but didn't know it was from S.Africa. Yes, this is a very, very frustrating road and I'm so sorry that you are still in the middle of it, with seemingly no end in sight.
    What I can tell you is this...we had to wait a long time for the birth of our one bio son, and he was every bit worth the wait. And we waited nine years for our two 'new' children (went through Vietnam and China first!), and they, too, are worth every bit of the wait. Already, despite the challenges, I can't imagine life without them.

    I'm glad my posts can somehow provide a little bit of insight into what things might be like for you (since your sibs will likely also be a bit older). It is, without a doubt, one of the hardest things I've done. But even not quite six weeks after taking custody, I can already see the light at the end of the tunnel...and it's a pretty bright light. It's going to be ok, and I'm amazed by how much strength God provides just when I need it the most.

    If you ever want to chat, by all means give me a call or send me an email. Or, if you have specific questions, comment here again and I'll try to address it.

    Again, thanks for being here Melanie...and your grandma, too (my Aunt Martha!!). Love it.

    Many blessings, and I hope to hear from you again.


  4. Soooo cool! Thanks for sharing this Ruth.

  5. Well that's worth more than a million bucks Ruth. My heart is overflowing for you.